Conflicted
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
This is way overdue. But being an OGL is no joke...I have no idea whether I want to be an OGL for next year's Orientation because the role is one that is chocked full of frustration and wrath. In the middle of the 2nd day I was walking around with a black thunderstorm on my face and giving everyone that "don't fuck with me right now or I swear to god I will crack your skull and suck your brain juice out" look. Some of the OGMs just could not be bothered and were completely wet blankets. Some were complete jackasses. One (not technically my OGM..just a VS moron/crasher) flipped me the bird for no reason. But some were pleasant enough and during the wet games on day 3 we had a lot of fun...albeit the pathetic attendance.
We Blackbeard OGLs danced to "Sexyback" and "Shy Guy" for our OGL performance and allied with the Barbossa and DJ OGLs to slam the Hookers..that, including the finale where everyone who was spontaneous and open-minded started moshing and conga-ing, was obscenely wicked~
Best part was when BLACKBEARD WON THE BEST FAMILY AWARD~ Uh-huh, yeah we the best.
I'm also damn happy about the fact that 2 of my classmates who had left for other JCs have successfully appealed back in! A03(or whatever our class is gonna be named) won't be drastically changed! Yay!
But all's not rainbows and sunshine and butterflies. I've been feeling damn conflicted about whether to stay in Choir or not. I'll start with the cons: 1) It is frigging time consuming. Think 3 times a week(or more) at 3-4 hours a session. 2)Taking KI and TSD together is already extremely demanding. If I throw Choir in with the mix, it'd be like courting death and it'd be kinder to jump off a building right now. 3) Everytime I stand next to the other Sops, I feel inferior and out of my league. 4) I think there are some people who dislike me already.
Okay pros: 1) Anyone who knows me well enough knows that I love singing. 2) Choir can actually be fun. 3) It strengthens my voice.
HELP. I repeat: HELP. I have no idea what to do.
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aureliaz out
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Farewell
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Today was an emo day. I cried(shed tears) twice. Once just after assembly and later in TM outside Long John's. Transience is a bitch at times. People come into our lives and actually make a difference. Yet they flit out of our lives again in the blink of an eye. I'm going to miss all those leaving so badly.
I can't believe that TPJC isn't accepting 14 points after bonus. It was just a humongous shock--my poor 'lau po' was posted to Ngee Ann Poly instead.
Watched Dreamgirls (again) and ate Long John's as mentioned before for the first time. It wasn't too unpleasant or pleasant. But the fries were good.
To those who are leaving: I'll treasure all the whacky and precious memories we have created together and I'll always think of you guys with fondness. Some things are just not meant to be, y'know? The threads of fate are constantly tangled, snapped, snipped and overlapped. We'll meet again. Till then, all I can bring myself to say is 'Thank you'.
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you:
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you:
Because I knew you:
I have been changed for good--Wicked
Indeed, because I knew you, I have been changed for good.
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aureliaz out
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